I try to swallow the pain
Before it eats me up.
The sharpness of it cuts my throat
Its bitterness makes me gag and choke
It digs deeper into my body
And attempts to venture into the depths of my soul.
But it hits my intestines,
Comes back up forcefully and
I projectile vomit it across the room.
My body rejects its presence,
But my mind welcomes it.
And I try to swallow the pain again.