You made me hate food
count every bite I have
then go exhausting myself
till I can’t feel myself
I can’t look in the mirror
without assuming I look huge
And now this has become a cycle
of me abusing myself
from either starving or binging
or working out too much
and through it, I don’t feel the pretty
I was a lover for food
I can’t call myself normal
I can’t be normal
You left me here to go insane
to be empty, to be at loss
I’m in loss with my soul




Photo by Naomi August