A cricket follows
you into the house.
You do not
know this at first.
But the echoed chirping of trapped
desperation haunts its way
into your dreams.
Funny, on how a bad
night, your bed sheets become a blade.
Your sweat becomes the guillotine. And
your dreams become an awakening
into the afterlife.
You watch the way
Like an exoskeleton picking
out and rearranging each rib
bone with every rise of the chest.
In your sleep – you speak to me
in riddles. Like you can’t afford
tongues. Like the devil
has been cleansed from inside
you. Like you gave up
poison years ago.
Yet here we lie.
Dirtying things that do not deserve
stains. Carving our names
into the trunks of trees just to prove
physicality. Knocking over grave
markers in the cemetery like the
answer to every secret
is in the haunting,
not in the ghost.
Was it still night?
There was no instant
way of knowing this.
Despair tried to sidle
in, cooing, “Look at all
you could have done.”
Continue reading Ruby Embers
Spent so long following the beaten path
The one lit up with tales of the right way
But I’ve been on this path for years
And I’m nowhere near where I wanna be
So I’m gonna turn here and
Go down that dark trail
And let the fire in me light the way
Tempting me with the easy road
The one that’s been tried and true
But for me that just won’t do
I don’t wanna make it to the other side
With my dreams as the sacrifice
When we are young we think
time is brimming with endlessness,
looking upon it with an insolent interest.
We are crowded with naive wonder,
that, in retrospect, is a touch frightening.
Should we pay our dues for blindly trusting
because we were deep in the
misguided haughtiness of possibility?
No. The world has gone ahead since then.
Continue reading Efflorescence.
You had a dream. You had plans and things seemed to be in order. Until they weren’t. Until they changed. And that person you trusted with your everything turned into someone else. And you ask yourself how you didn’t see it coming, how could you not know. But you didn’t, because you trusted them, you believed them. And you blame yourself. But it’s not your fault. You can’t be guilty of trusting the good you were showed. You are not guilty of believing they felt the same way about your life, your dreams… because they said they did. Because they showed you they did. Because they planned that life with you. Before they turned into everything you wanted to run away from. And it’s hard to turn around and see your dream have turned into a nightmare. But it’s harder to pretend you didn’t see it. So you fight if you must. You run if you must. And you start again. But you never, ever stop believing. In yourself. And in the good you see in others.
© Máh Lima