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Tomboy – Short Film | Rochelle Engwell

Tomboy – Short Film

Tomboy is an original idea that Rochelle came up with, whilst reflecting on her personal life.

She has had “tomboy” moments and has found change in this area, to be difficult to adjust to. It wasn’t until she entered her twenties, that she started to feel more comfortable, with trying out more feminine styles of clothing.

As Rochelle develops as a videographer/filmmaker, she’s currently exploring other areas within this creative path.

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“Morning Chat Series” | Ep.05: Does Gear Matter?

Does Gear Matter?

Gear. Technology. The latest camera, iPhone or even down to our games consoles. We all want the best, but is it really for the best?

In this weeks episode of Morning Chat, Rochelle breaks down why having the best gear in videography (or other creative fields) doesn’t matter.

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Roses From a Dragon

Have you ever heard a song that made life so worth it?
A song that’s always there when you need it?
A perfect shoulder to cry on.
Can you hear it? It’s incredible.
The work of art. The kind of song made just for you.
It’s the song you can’t wait to listen to after a long day of life.
The kind of song that gently rocks you to sleep
and eagerly wakes you in the morning.
The kind of song that makes everything a unique moment in time.
A conversation with God.
It’s the kind of song that makes you feel like you conquer the world.
It reminds you that nothing is impossible.
A fantasy of the perfect life. It takes you to paradise.
That brilliant wordplay, complemented by a soulful baseline,
it makes listening to a new song impossible.
It’s the song you just want to listen to all day.
The kind of song that you can dance to forever;
a delicate waltz with eternity.


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“Morning Chat Series” | Ep. 04 – Just Start!

Just Start!

We all procrastinate, especially when it comes to the goals we set ourselves. In this episode of Morning Chat, Rochelle talks about starting a project sooner rather than later and how it can be a benefit.

Starting out can be daunting. When you’re a beginner in your creative field, you want everything to be perfect, the first time you make a project. Even thought it’s not wrong, it can be counterproductive, if things fall apart and they usually do!

There is no perfect time to start. There’s always something bigger or better or a new trend that’s circulating. If we continue putting our dreams on hold, we’ll never reach them.

So start now and reap the benefits later.


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“Morning Chat Series” Ep. 03 – Fear

Ep.03: Fear

In the third episode of this motivational series, Rochelle tackles the subject of fear.

At the time this episode was filmed, Rochelle had a personal experience with fear. Continue reading “Morning Chat Series” Ep. 03 – Fear

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“Morning Chat Series” | Ep.02: Comparisons

“Morning Chat Series” Episode 02: Comparisons

In this, the second week’s episode of “Morning Chat”, Rochelle discusses the topic of comparisons.

As creators, we always seem to find fault with our work! Some of this is due to the comparisons we make. We are so afraid of failing, that we never dare to try!

Rochelle explains that comparisons are damaging to our growth as creators. She adds a simple yet profound statement. She suggests that the only person we should compare ourselves to, is our past self and our own work, not to someone else.

With this series, Rochelle hopes to create a community or even just a discussion, for those who are breaking out of the beginner stage of their chosen creative path.

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How The Men I Dated Helped Destroy My Self-Image.

How The Men I Dated Helped Destroy My Self-Image.

Society has a real strong focus on self-love and how you only need yourself to be happy, and I get that, I really do. Society also acts like the relationships you have with others don’t have a toll on you. I started thinking about all the men I dated over the years and how badly they fucked me up. I decided to be so petty and call a couple out.

S: This was my first “real” boyfriend. I saw the world in him, that type of jazz. Turns out in the end he was a total piece of trash but any who. This was the man who simply couldn’t take no for an answer. This was the man who pushed me, and ripped my pants off of me after I said no a million times. This was the man who helped destroy my self-image by teaching me that the men who were supposed to love me couldn’t possibly respect me. This was the man who showed me how much I was really worth to him. How could I mean so little and how could someone have so little respect for me?
M: This one was probably the person who fucked me up the most in life. Well maybe even second. This was the man who promised me the world, promised me a future. This was the man who made me feel safe. This was also the man who left me by stating that he simply didn’t care about me anymore. This was the man who helped me destroy my self-image by proving to me that the worst thoughts I had about myself were real. Nobody hated me more than I hated myself. The thoughts inside my head kept me up at night, constantly thinking that I wasn’t enough, the love I had wasn’t desirable.
The men I dated have ruined my self-image in so many ways, whether it was calling someone fat who was a lot smaller than me, telling me how being assaulted made me broken, putting their hands on me with anything but love in mind.  The people I have met in life have really fucked me up along the way. I started to see myself the way these men treated me, I dated so many cowards that treated me like trash that I simply began to believe love wasn’t real, love was just something Hollywood made up to make a couple billion dollars.
I dated so many men who simply didn’t know how to love me, and it made me believe I wasn’t worth loving, my self-image was already fucked up from having anxiety and depression but the relationships I had with these men just put fuel to the fire.
I write a ton about self-love because I spent years not being able to love myself and with men who just couldn’t love me. I saw these broken men and tried to fix them, and that was such a mistake. I was trying to fix these boys who didn’t want to be fixed, who grew fond of making a joke out of me.
Self-love takes a very long time after dealing with abusive men and awful relationships, I have not mastered self-love yet and if you haven’t either that is okay, you’re not undesirable just because you haven’t mastered self-love yet. I promise someone is going to love the shit out of you. Keep going.

Scars heal.